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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
New signal about my wings growth​


Hi.

It's been while that I haven't post anything related to my wings.

Welp, yesterday, I got some new symptoms that I have never had since I started growing wings:

+ Back felt like it was heated because i felt pretty hot thought I was in my room with the air conditioner on.

+ Twitching, and it was also sore.

+ All those symptoms happened right at both side of the spinal and under the shoulder blade.

+ When I was standing in front of the mirror, I could see the energy and the shape of my wings clearly.

Moreover, they got bigger than since I last sensed them.That's it.

I also think to talk about changing the wings type in the next chapter with the pic, but according to what is going on with the Wattpad, I'm a little bit tired about that.

However, I still want to tell u all know about this.Gotta end here.

Have a great day
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Fortune telling dream (kinda, I guess)​


Hi, it's been months since I haven't updated my progress.

There's no update but.....

Well, I wanna say that I had a dream about our Mythical beings (nonhuman) community in the future, kinda?

Not sure but my dream was so real that I still can remember them though it's been a month.The scene that I saw in the stream looked like it was somewhere in America or Canada.

The place that I flew to had many apartment buildings.

And I saw a middle-aged man who looked like Harrison Ford in the younger version.

He was at home with a girl at around the age of 10-12 yrs whom I guessed maybe his daughter or niece.

He was waiting for someone in nervous feeling.

Then, me.

Yeah, I flew up to his apartment and I was gonna tell him sth.

Suddenly, There was a whole police task forced team like the SWAT came up and shot me.

Since I saw it, I knew that I was in the protesting for mythical beings' rights riots period.

'kay.

I was shocked and also the man-who-looks-like-Harrison-Ford-youth-ver with his little girl, too.

I told him "let's head to the base and we will have a meeting there", then I flew down.

I had to as fight against those guys in defence as trying to save the people on the street with my abilities (I had earthbending, telekinesis, martial art), houses and the soldiers, too.

But, there were so many that I hardly could head back to the basement safely.

I got shot from the back.

I was bleeding on my back and chest, stomach.

I thought I was gonna die.

Luckily, the others from my team had come up to help and save me.

I yelled to them try not to hurt the soldiers and people badly nor kill 'em.

After that, I tried my best to get to the basement.

THEN.......

I woke up 🙂. heck!

Ok.

That's what my dream like.

After that dream, I have got a thought in my mind which keep telling me 'till now: "the community will come up, it will happen, it will happen earlier than what the famous fortune-teller Baba Vanga said.

But, I, dunno what to do for the best.

All that I can think of now is saving money and making up the plan, searching for the necessary stuff, and getting ready for the bad things that come up.

Let me know what ur thought 'cause I'm kind of freaked out.

And I will tell u know about other dreams which a friend of mine also had those kinds of dream similar to mine.Enjoy ur day and remember to keep safe
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Coming out and arguing​


Hello, xin chào.

Haha.

It's been a while, dudes.

Today, i wanna talk about coming out as an nonhuman to my human friends.

Have u ever come out as nonhuman beings to ur people like ur friends or a member of the family?

I did.

3 guys, and a miss whom is my mom's friend, but she's really trustworthy.*The first one I came out was a normal human, named Bach (in Vietnamese we call him is Bách, with high pitch), who wanna be a witch and have interested in all the stuffs that relates to the mysterious things, psychology, numerology, etc...

And we have been friend since we were in grade 6th 'till now.

At first, he was the guy who I trust the most because I'd believed we had many commons.

And he was super supportive to me, and happy for me to have wings.

But it turned out to be bad when I told him know my dream about the riots and a Vietnamese nonhuman whom the first I ever made friend with since the day 20/11/2020, the Vietnamese Teachers' Day.

And he reacted to be disagree to what we was doing in the dream just because of dreaming seeing Nha Trang became a mess, and he was freaking scared.

He scared because he worried what if his dreams come true and he didn't want his family to get involved in.

He told me had to do sth to stop the protesting nor riot (even the peaceful protestings).

I was surprised, I ask him so he meant we had to hide away forever and never be able to be free at all and be in at the edge of danger?

He was like....

Out of words, felt in silent 'cause I hit the nail on the head.

But then he said: "I don't care, please do anything to stop that those things happened".

I said, but the fact is we couldn't know whether that things would happened exactly like wut we saw or not 'cause they're just the dreams, and we cannot assume as if it's 100% happened like that.

We only knew that the riot/ protesting is can't avoid.

But he kept asking me to stop those so I changed the topic.

Days later, there was one day he want to see the numerology and told that numerologist about me, without revealing the my name, he did keep the identity in secret.

But....

Wut they said truthly make me feel disappointed.

At the end of September, at around 12:00am, he texted me and said I had to give up growing wings 🙂.

I asked why i should do that.

Then he said tons of reason to let me know why I should give up like: the world nowadays is not suitable for me to have wings anymore; ermm, the God or Master, sth like that, would stop us from harming the human beings; or...

Like in the next few years, a new type of beings would show up; bla bla....

And I...

I had to say that I'm fucking disappointed of wut he had said to be because I did trust him so bad I even could tell him 'bout the dreams, my manifestion.

But he did that.

I'm so....

I dunno wut to say anymore.

So I told him please stop, don't u dare to say that anymore.

And we fought throung the Messenger 🙂.

And I stopped talking to him for like more than a week, and one days, he apologized.

Unfortunately, my trust in him isn't like before anymore.

He used to be one of the people who i trust the most, but now is not anymore because our thoughts and our worlds have so many differences.

Moreover, he even didn't respect my choices and listen my words from heart.**The second one was a lady whom I mentioned from the begin, a friend of my mom's friend.

Her name's Mi.

She's a better than Bach, she do respects me and supportive, she believes wut i tell her and she doesn't kick me away.

She accepts and understands me.

She's like my best friend and also best sister to me 'cause we're pretty close to each other.***And the other 2 dudes are the girls.

One is my classmate in the college, and one is my classmate since highschool.

Two of them are also kinda close to me, too.

Because we usually talk to each other, and we often say erm *swearing* together, but just like between best buddies, not take serious like treating bad.

We do have fun together, and they do listen to me, too.

But however, i only can let 'em know the knowledges first so that I can confess more with 'em.That's it.

Maybe some of u guys would wonder why I came out to them, it's so dangerous.

Welp, because I know them, i know what they like, i know that they will hear me out, and accept me.

Besides, before I had come out to them, i did ready for the worst thing could come up, too.

I only know that so I could be ready to tell them know the truth about me.

That's it.

Once u know that ur ready for the worst, and be ready for being rejecting.

It's alike to coming out as a part of the LGBTQ+ community, too.Luv.

Have a great day/night.
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Skin​


Recently, I've found that my skin is different, especially is at around the neck and my shoulders.

It's not smooth and soft anymore.

It's alike to the chicken skin, which our skin would show up when we got the goosebumps.

But the thing is I don't have any goosebumps at all, not feeling cold or scared at all.

But my skin have always like that for weeks.

I didn't notice until a friend of mine asked me whether I were cold or not (we were hanging out at a coffee and it had the air conditioner).

I replied her that I were not, then she said "so then why ur skin looks like u got cold or goosebumps like that?".

I were like: "Da heck?????".

I touched my skin at neck and it did felt like the chicken skin.

The first thought came up in my mind was: "is it a sign to show that my body is now getting the feather?".

I'm not sure, but right deep in side my mind somehow told me that it is.

Erm....

I'm kind of feeling nervous and excited at the same time.

Being excited is because finally there's an another new sign.

Being nervous is because it's kinda fast.

I'm planning to have have top surgery in order to get rid of my breast dysphoria before my wings starts having the noticable signs.

Cross my finger, hope that I save money enough and as soon as possible.Luv.

Have a nice day/night
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Decision and new announcement​


After having a talk with my friend about the wings growth and my top surgery.

I was in split minded to think about those two.

As u guys know that i have boobs dysphoria alike to the transguys, and it's really bad that everyday I usually think about having top surgery, or even worse is wanna take a knife and cut off the breast on my own.But, thanks to the dude that i talk yesterday, i've made my mind and i got a thought: just focusing on increasing height but the wings actually make me feel exhausted.

And besides, if I get top surgery before I have visible signs, it's the good thing.

But if thing happens on other hands, maybe I have to accept the fact that I may can't get top surgery and gotta find ways to cope with it.Ok next.

Let's head to the point: I'm thinking about make a book that about me (of course also has chapters about me being Avian and nonhuman stuffs), then I'd ask the Webnovel to work with.

Actually, this journal was once asked for published on it's app and web: Webnovel, but it turned out that this journal was not be able to published 'cause in this journal may have some chapters that have the swearing words and the webnovel doesn't want to published any book that has 18+ stuffs, include swearing words.

That's it.Wish u have a good day.

Recently, my Facebook has been showing up tons of new about the showbiz in Vietnam, Chinese and also about the government in US,too.

Hope that y'all alright.

Best wish
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Changing wings shape.​


Hi.

Today such a normal day and I don't have classes to be on.

Ah.

Gotta let u know.

Hehe, My birthday is about to come for 2 weeks left, I kinda looking forward it because that the only day that I can rest without being bothered about my lil' sis and my mom.

But that's not the point of this chap.Before I tell u know how my wings shape got changed different from the ever first chapter which I had mentioned about my wings shape and type of my wings, I wanna to let u know some of signs that I have got recently 'cause I bet that may be most of the reader who are in transition to be nonhuman prefer knowing the new symptom to reading something else.

I haven't check my back in front of the mirror 'cause I have been doing the challenge "Not to look at the mirror to check progress" for 3 days.

My goal is doing the challenge for a month to see if there's sth new.

And, it does.

I gotta write some new signs I got without looking my back in front of mirror:+ Feelin like the skin got stretch out+ Have the pulsing at the middle of back, like at the spinal and a bit lower form the shoulder blade+ Better sense of smelling, I can smell things through the mask.+ My legs have the greyish spots right at the roots of hair+ The upper body, especially around my neck, biceps, shoulder have grown sth like acnes, but they are kind of hard, feeling like the chicken skin when I touch.+ Nails are a little bit sharper than normal.+ Hard to sleep comfortably on back at night 'cause I feel like getting back strain.That's all.ok.

Next.

Let's get to the point of this chapter as the title has said.

Yes, my wings changed.

I will tell u the story: It's been half a year since I got the fist dream that showed my wings clearly.

At the first chapter, I thought that I'd get the passive soaring like eagle because I was attracted to 'em.

But in that dream, I saw myself with night glidder wings type, I guess.

They looked like the combination of owls àn the eagles.

It was big, broad and kind of round at the bottom feathers which called secondary feathers like owls and at the end tip of each primary feathers had the wide gaps like eagles.

Besides, the colour of my wings is some kind of colour that is camouflage to the nature and the sky at night: Brownish with the greyish and little bit of dark blue like dark navy or cobalt, maybe?So after that dream, I did researched about my glidder night wings type and I got the name of bird wings I had in the dream: Eurasian Owl, also called as Eagle owls.

When I was researching, I found that my wings color was different from the normal Eagle owls whould have.

The reason I'd love to tell at the next chapter.End.

Have a great day/ night and remember to wear mask whenever u are outside and stay safe during pandemic.
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
The theory about changing wings shape and my phantom form​


As I promised in the previous chapter, I did wrote that I'd tell u guys know the theory I've got why my wings change.

I think maybe it's shape forming based on our desire to live like where we would like to live, what we expect from the wings, how we want to fly, etc...

For example is me: I want to fly both fast, rapidly but also wanna fly in silent so that nobody could detect me by the sound, I want my wings to be camouflage with the sky and nature in day and night; I want my wings big alike to Aviae eagle type.

So that for the reason why my wings shape change from the eagle to the eagle owl because the eagle owls' wings have some points that fit my desire, but the colour is different a little bit from the normal, like wut I said in the previous chap.Oh yeah, I also grow the tail too.

But my tail is the non traditional.

It's long, flexible, and has the fur at the body of tail, at the end and on side of the tail has the feathers part that work alike to traditional bird tail.

Actually, I had thought about having a tail for a long time ago, but the point is whenever I tried visualizing my tail, the traditional one, I never felt right.

The more I forced myself to fit in that tail, the worse feeling I got.

But when I was in the relaxing mood like reading books, mangas, or listening to the music, I usually felt my phantom tail that moving alike to the cats, and sometime it ruffled feathers when I'm surprised, or angry.

Then there is one more thing, I've got my final true form.

It's like this:

Then my feet claws is the pic below:

And one final things, I think my ears are also change to because I can sense my phantom ear form is pointy similar to the hybrid elf with few baby feathers.Ok that's all.

Wish u a good day.
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Nail polishing​


Hello.

Sorry for going away for a month. i know that some of u may not really care about that, but it's just I feel like it has been months lol.

Few days ago before my birthday, i asked my mama for buying for me to get nail polish and also asked her if she also wanted to get some or not.

It turned out well, she said she would pay the things for us so I needn't to worried about that.

And I got my 3 nail polishes.

Then 4 days ago, my mom said that she didn't like the dark rose color so she gave it for me.

The reason i wanna get nail polishes because I want to get my cringe for cutting nail down so that I can grow my nail to become my claws.

After having nails polished, it works well.

I no more cutiing nails nor bitting, and have nail polishes on make my hand look nice, and look like I have claws already

My hands actually look kinda ugly 'cause I used to often crack my fingers.

But now I'm trying to get rid of that habit.

I did show them to my nonhuman fellow, whom is an Undead Chimera.

He said my hand look like i have claws.

Hehehe, I feel like I got motivated now lol

END
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Few updates about my form and the weird thing happened recently​


Ok first thing, I will put down the new signs that I have got recently:- 20/03/2021

+ Body: Got taller about 1 or 2cm.

+ Legs: Started have the dark, grayish spots that look like acnes because they looked bump up.

I started walking on toes alike beastmen unconsciously.

But when I walk normal back like hooman, my heels are hurt and uncomfortable.

+ Hands: Feeling like they got longer and leaner.

The nails are sharp, not pointy.

And the line on my palms are changed, too.

Especially the business aka learning line and the line of life got longer, clearer.

I guess maybe the reason is because I chose my path to be nonhuman and my plan about future.

+ Tail: Nothing much.

The phantom tail is still normal.

+ Wings: I dunno if the internal part has changed or not.

But the strange feeling, twitching, soreness have come up more usually and also get stronger too.

The phantom wings are also get stronger about feeling and clearer in my mind

+ Kinesis: nothing new yet.

But I think i can do a little bit aerokinesis now.

Gotta make stronger and better to notice easily.

+ Ears: hear better a bit.

I can sense a bit of the noise when I take out my hearing aids.

+ Smelling: got better and more sensitive.

I can smell things kinda good through the mask.

+ Teeth: become more pointy (my camine teeth were grinded flat due to having my brace on, but now I don't have brace anymore).

They are not sharp because I don't grind them from the inner side.- Today,07/04/2021

+ I walk on toes more often, my legs and feet have been often twitching and sometime I got soreness as if I have done legs workout.

And my legs also started looked slimmer a bit, and longer.

+ The wings: my skin felt like it is stretched out, I can feel that my skin rub again the inside part, maybe muscle or cartilage, I dunno.

+ The phantom tail has got clearer feeling and image whenever i think about the future when I once come out as Aviae.

Anddddd~~ lets get into the point: the weird thing:

Recently, like since a half of month ago, inside my mind conscious often shows up some scenarios in the future when the apocalypse and riots happened.

There's one day I saw me, mom, my lil' sister, my 7yrs-older aunt and some of my best friends who I pretty close with, went with me to the land of nonhuman, or to Canada, somewhere, I'm not sure.

Or there's sometime I could sense that I was making food for them and add some herb mixed vs few drop of my blood for in case they wouldn't become the cordyceps nor getting stomachache.Oh dudes, i'm kinda worried man.

What do u think about dis??END
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Maybe entering the 2nd stage of growing wings​


YESSS!!

FINALLY!

Finally my back has a visible sign.

Four days ago, at night after midnight, I took a pic of my back to keep up the progress every months.

And that time, I noticed there were two SUPER SMOL bumps at between the shoulder blades.

At first I thought that was the muscle gaining from doing workout.

But I took that thought back 'cause I remembered that recently I didn't hit workout often but just planking and some scretching, nor any pull ups or push ups so my body was kind chubby, and now my body is still the same.Actually, by the moment I knew what they were, I almost yell out, but luckily I kept it well, because in otherwise, my mom might kill me LOL.But, well, at the same time I also worried as well because I've not got a job yet, haven't got my own independent financial either, and still have not graduate uni too.

Besides, I also have an another plan before my wings come out visibly.

So I wonder if I can slow down the progress in order to work out my thigs go well, but I bet nope.

However there's still hope 'cause it will take few years more to get the sprout.Oh right, I forget dis.

I notice recently the binders got tighter a bit.

But mah boobs aren't changed about the size and they're still the same as before, so I guess my rib maybe bigger a bit and either my shoulder.

Well well, things are gonna to be down on the roller coaster, mann.

Cross fingers.Wish u guys have a great progress soon.
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Developing tail, maybe?​


Yesterday, I noticed that at the spinal cord area, I found a lump that slightly showed up a bit.

Like in the pic uponAt first, i didn't know what it was, I thought that was just fat 'cause I'm a bit chubby and I don't do workout very often.

But then that thought definitely gone away when I saw that the bump like fat-stuff was thicker than the skin around that spot.

But I still not sure so I went on to the Alation group to ask for an answer, and I got the answer as what I thoughtAfter dis, I got a theory about the symptoms which would let u know that ur body is developing tail

+ Got the phantom tail feeling

+ U may sometimes find it hard to sit comfortably on any chairs that have the back part

+ Have the soreness, hurt, uncomfortable, twitching feeling or any pain, weird feeling at the spot, where u used to suppose no having any strange feeling before.

Sometimes u may get the tired back feeling at the spinal cord like the olders often have

+ U may can control ur tail in somehow ways whenever u want.
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Shoulder blades got changed​


Henlo.

Right now in Vietnam is night, at around 1:20am.

But i am about to sleep.

Well as u see the title, yes in this chap there's a smol update about my shoulder blades.15 mins ago, before doing some light exercises before bed, I had read some random post the wings growth changes on Alation.

And I found one which is about the first stage of internal changes.

By the time I read to the shoulder blades part, the author said that shoulder blades might change to be smol to let some spaces so that wings can develop well, i suddenly remembered that my shoulder blades recently also had slight changing too.My shoulder blades have been harder to notice under my skin, even when I try to push my shoulder blades or not.

And i also have take photos of my back and found the muscle also changed as well.

It barely to be noticed, but I can sense that it's shape got changes, looked wider, bumper a bit.And the tail part, it changed too.

I found a reallllll smol hole right inside of the bump which I did told u know in the last chapter.

Oh boyyyss, I'm so excited.

Haha, bet that I will have a nice night and have a great dream.That's it.

See u again.

Gotta to sleep now.
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
New things, maybe?​


Hello, seem like I haven't post anything for a while, right?

Today, ưmmm, i gotta write down something new about my wings growth and other stuffs as well.'Kay, first one: WINGS AND TAIL

My body hasn't changed much, the lumps, they have been kind of show up and fade away, show up then fade again thought i can sense clearly how my skin got scretched out, and twitching, and the pulling muscle at back and chest.

The tail, its phantom form has become clearer.SECOND THING: MY PHANTOM FORM

My mindscape seem has divide into 2 view of my phantom looking.

One is my body with digitigraded legs, full grown big wings and tail, of course, i can move them as well.

And an another one is my body with the wings nubs, tail nub, and my legs covered with fur and slowly changes into digitigraded legs.

The fact is: the first mindscape I can control my wings and tail as if I already got them fully grown.

And the second one, its progress is as slow as how my physical body is changing.

I often can sense both of them at same time, sometimes my mind shows up the picture one of those.

Kinda weird, right dudes?

And FINAL: THE KINESIS ABILITIES

Honestly, in the chapter which about my riot/protesting dream in Canada, I don't remember did I note down that I had kinesis abilities or not.

But in that dream, i saw me having aerokinesis, pyrokinesis, hydrokinesis, Earth bending, telekinesis and also the electrokinesis.

I know...

I know!!

Sound unreal and impossible, right?

But that's the fact, i had them in my dream.

In reality, i'm not sure, but I'm planning to get them except one or two, maybe.

At the present, I feel like I can get pyro, electrokinesis, aerokinesis, and the last one could hydro or telekinesis.

And, until now, I can do aerokinesis a bit like i can call the wind to blow as i want it to, but not often turn out like accurate.

The next kinesis I am going to learn is the electrokinesis and the pyro.

But I dunno where I should begin.

Bet that I may lost a while to master those power.

Everything take time.

That's all.

Best wish.

Stay safe and keep heathy well.

The pandemic seem gets worse due to the thing is going on in India.
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
An another lockdown again in this June and some new signs​


Hi.

Today in Vietnam is 26/06/2021 and time is around :21am.

It's been a while.

Acually, i did planned to update this damn wattpad, unfortunately that I couldn't because of the Wifi at my house, it's like it block almost the website which come from the other countries.

Mostly is the porn websites, Wattpad some international websites.

Besides, my phone has been being lagged badly due to being dropped for tons of time.

I think maybe after finishing lockdown, I have to have my phone fixed well...

Bet that I gotta withdrawal money from my saving for top surgery, which is real pain for my 'cause I want my plan go well.'kay, lets get in to point.

First, as u see the title, the first phrase, yeah, lockdown things.

The fact is, Ho Chi Minh City has been in lockdown twice in this month.

The first period was from the 1st of June then would be end at the 15th.

But sadly, the patients and the people whom suspect that having the Covid have increase rapidly, so the government decided to work out an another 2-week lockdown again, which means I have to wait until the 29th so that I can go out.Honestly, in these two periods of lockdown, I have my dysphoria got worse, and the urge for wings, flying also became stronger.

Everyday, there's no moments that I didn't think about the wings things and my boobs.

And worse, i feel like I was about to be in depression due to being stressful with my mom and my lil's sister.

I...

I feel like...

I'm not truthful at home even though where I living is my house.

All day, all what I could do were waking up, having online classes, wiping the house, feeding cats,...

And listening to the subs.

Those rounetine keep in loop, and I'm realllll bored.

I have been struggling with being can't have coffee, struggling with the urge for flying....

And also, money, yeahh...

Most of us all experience that.

Yeah...But, well, luckily, or not really, i think?

Well, u know what.

In this months, I have got so many new symptoms.

My back has been in pain more often, and my top half of back has been fluffier a bit (just the feeling, u can't see any visible hair nor baby feather).

My eyes seem got better a bit, i can somehow see things in the dark.

My legs have been more cramps, soreness and pain, besides I also got taller either.

And, after months since the day I attended in the 2nd stage of wings growth, internal changes, I finally got pain and twitching more at my tail area.

And the finger nail, i prefer to call them claws, they got harder that I can be scratched and bleed accidentally, but they went softer when I let the claws touch the water.

That's a lot, whoa, amazing right?Erm...

And final thing, i have been on mind about signing contract with Webnovel to public this book, and I did made contract with 'em last week.

Well, the reason I decided to do that is I want to have my independent financial as soon as possible so that I don't have to rely on my mother anymore in the future.

Y'all know, once we got our real, physical, and permanent wings , with or without tail, we may never can go out public anymore, nor having job outside, and if we wanna make money, the only option is Work from home, as a Freelancer.

Yes that's it.

So, yeah, i made the contract, I'm going to post it on the Webnovel only after I finished this shit lockdown and get coffee for my poor mind at the coffee stores.

One more things, i also try to look up a job that I can work at home, but before that, i have to develop digital art skill, and editing mangas skills, and also the Japanese skill.

About Japanese, i have to get to the N3 so that I can apply for jobs as an translator easier because English translators are pretty popular, and most people have already know English.

Yeah.

Hard time.However, i will can overcome those shit and manage my daily expenses.

I wishes y'all will do your things well and u can get what u desire for.

Best wish and stay safe.OMG, i forgor dis...

LOL, yeahhh, guyssss.

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH 💖🎉.

U all deserved to be who u wanna be from deep inside ur hearts, and be happy for being yourself.

Luv
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Hi, I'm back​


Hi, it's been a while.

Sorry for this.

Let me tell ya the reason.It happened back in around the day 28th, November, 2021.

That was the day Hori ep8 limited edit got released, and i had to get to the bookstore in early morning to line up and get that.

But sadly, while trying to get my friend out of the crowd by texting her to talk, the goddamn ashole man snatched away my precious 3 years of using phone right in front of the bunch of people.

Then the result was I had to use my mom's old suck Iphone which didnt allow me to download many app due to being the ios12 suck ass.

I have had to struggling with it until this January after the Vietnamese Tet holiday that I could finally get my new phone.Those time without letting you guys know the updates, there were plenty of things happened to me.

I will let you guys know in the next chapters.Love y'all.

I miss this so much.

Gotta work on it
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
What happened during that 1 year and half before getting new phone​


There's a lot of things happened since the last chapter in June 2021.

In summer that year in Vietnam had 3 times lockdown due to the Covid situation at that time, and not only that, my mental did went worse as well.

Mostly about my dysphoria, it got worse a lot, and also, because of not being able to get out of house, I was kept scolded by my family a lot, being accused for being lazy or being selfish, emotionless just because mom saw I less want to get bond with her and my little sister and others.After that day incident 28th Nov 2021, there were plenty news about that camping for Horimiya ep8 limited, of course also had the news about having phone snatched away.

And you know what?

I got on that news as well cuz it was happened right in front of bunch of crowd stuffing in front of the gate in early morning.

But funny yet glad thing was: one fanpage did offered to the actual person got that situation happened to them, who was me, that they would give away a set of Horimiya ep8 limited as a comforting gift.

Thanks to them, I wasn't disappointed much.

At least I got a blessing in disguise LOL.In Dec 2021, I got a parttime job at a small pub, it was the side kitchen.

But just after 2 months, I stopped work there due to the struggling abouty deafness (i have hearing aids, but if in the noisy environment I still have issue in hearing) and the clumsy which leading to the fact that working in kitchen is not for me.

Then came to the summer in 2022, around June, I got another parttime job at a cat coffee which I work until now.My studying in University has got worse.

It's not about the things i study.

It's about the struggling in time, school fee and their fukking annoying schedule.

Hoa Sen University has 5 campuses, and they're placed each other is so FREAKING far!

For moving to each campus, the average time for driving in bike is around 30' to 45' (not including the traffic hours).

Or else, the schedule would be set like this: for example 1 semester I signed up 5 subjects, there would have 2-3 subjects got in SAME time shift in different campus or could be in the same campus; or 2-3 subjects would be in aligned shift but in different campuses distanced for 45' driving bike meanwhile the break between shift for classes only 15'.

So fuk it, i just secretly set as i want and lying my mom about the schedule to let me have a bit more time to sneak put and allowing me have my lovely free time.I've got plenty of weird dreams which are pretty realistic and vivid, i even got some view/vision (?) as well.

I'm planning to make a book about those i had.

Whatcha think?

I think it'd be interesting.

And my energy has got changed a lot as well.

Not only that, i even got some changes about the wings, the form and 2 other awkening.

I will talk about that in the next chapter.And oh one last thing i want to say: that one year, i wrotey diary a lot and until now, i have got to the 3rd book now LOL.

Never have I ever would think I could write that much.

Because in the high school era (grade 10th-11th), I couldn't write much last for 1 month, i would write for 2 weeks then real quick after that I got lazy or forgot abouty diary.

The time I decided to put effort into it was in middle of September 2019.

From left to right in order: 2019-2022; 2022- Feb 2023; Feb 2023-now
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
The weird feeling and awkening in 2022-2023​


As I mentioned last one about the dream/vision and awkening things which leading to changing things about my wings and specie.

So Imma talk about that now.The first time I got changed wings type was in the summer of 2021 because of that one flying dream showed hint about my wings.

I changed into the Eurasian Eagle Owls wings.

In around the January 2022, I got to know how my tail would be.

In overall it'd be like this in basic:

My tail would have 1 more pair of the fin/feathered fan placed at the root of tail work for lifting up the bottom of body to make flying better.Then coming to the February 2022, the unsure feeling came up again, then coincidently my fellow in transition to be a chimera, let's call them as Alice, talked to me that i should picked other bird specie to have better chance surviving in Vietnam, so I got another call for having connection feeling: it became the Peregrine.

Again, coming to the July same year, Alice told me about their researching, and they found that according to the climate change happening in current, saying in future the world will have highly chance to be hotter, the air would be polluted real bad.

Birds, especially the carnivorous birds are sensitive to the environment changings which mean they'd have highly chance going extinct first.

Then they recommended me to choose a domestic birds such as dove, parrots, sparrows...Hearing that fact, I was like, got the clarifying thought: No wonder why every time i switched bird species, all the previous connections just go away immediately.

But the fact is: i never have the calling toward to those domestic birds.

I gazed out, staring at the chatting I was having with them, considering.

All of sudden, a old calling which I had for long time ago since when I started lerning about the WG (wings growing), I thought it was just a phase, but no.

The answer was already from the start, it's "Dragon”.

The feeling suddenly went strong, so strong that my heart pounding hard, i felt a slight heat in my body.

I ask them: "Dragon.

How about that?".

Oh my, how interesting.The reason I didn't choose dragon from the first place is because I have the feeling for having feather stronger than having membrance wings.

Since that moments, my phantom form went changed immediately after doing research got to know that there's also have feathered dragon too.

And eventually, researching, learning about dragon, finding if I'm a dragon shifter or a dragon-man (aka hybrid dragon).

Here what I drew based on the feeling I have abouty phantom form:

About the leg, it's the front looking so it may looked a bit weird.

It's just the angle looking in drawing, actually its' size is average dragon man legsAnd here's about my ✋:

After that, my energy got shifted a lot, i've got plenty symptoms and some of them did made me tired a bit and sometimes i got pain as well.

The nubs are still in muscle changing stage so I can say that there's still have time for the wings cuz I haven't got my cartilage nubs yet.I thought that was all.

But no.

Life is full of surprises.

Things were just going casually til the January this year, I started randomly saw blurry shadow of my wings, around 2 weeks later I found that Cheerub, subliminal maker, published the 4-winged subliminal, but i didn't care, only got to see what it was about, nothing more and totally have no intention to get that as well.

And here the funny shit: instead of normal set of wings, it was a 2nd set but smaller, a bit downward from the normal placement for wings.

I didn't care much about it, i thought that was just a phase, it just random symptom which wasnt big deal much.

I'm wrong, man.

It's got stronger as time passed.

Last month, about the date of 20th of March, one night, I was chilling in my room, eating snack, being topless no shirt, I suddenly got muscle cramps a lot and that time was totally different that it made me realized sth was not right.

It happened at 2 different spots: at the shoulderblades part and at the mid back (within the ribcage arear) instead of going all along my back from shoulderblades in reversed triangle.

It kept twitching and cramping that I had to ask myself: "hey there, what da fuk is goin on hah?".

I got onto the Alation to ask about this and Cheerub, who is also a member in there, explained that could be the 4-winged awkening.

Oh yo, hell!I was goddamn suprised that I didn't believe it at first.

I went to make tarot reading twice, doing the intuition shoulder tapping method to ask if it was true or not.

And guess what?

All of them, the answers were all "Yes".

Right after seeing the answer, without realizing, my phantom form went shifted immediately, it went from having 1 set of wings to 2 sets of wings.Man.

I still can't believe that much.

Still having doubt about it.

But no matter how i try to visualize me with 1 set of wings, the phantom form still doesn't changed at all.

Then here one night, I think i saw a dream having someone talked to me about this and they told me just work it normally and see the process going cuz I was chosen.

Oh my dear, CHOSEN?!

Why?!Things just goes funkier and funkier that now I cant find any other explaining anymore but having to accept the reality I'm in.

Don't ask me, even myself couldn't get the reason as well.

All wut i know is: i got chosen.

Nothing more, just that it.

But you know what, if Gaia told me so, then let's see what da fuk will come.END
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
A bit side words about the 4-winged, and update about the kinesis​


Well, yesterday which also means about the last chapter, I didn't show you the anatomy in guess.

Actually I did draw it, but it looked pretty akward and I'm also not really confident much to let you guys know about my thoughts.

So imma do a bit researching and also feel more about the symptoms my body gives to me until the point I feel sure enough to say.Now let's talk about my kinesis abilities.

This 1 year my kinesises have fluctuate changing a lot except my aerokinesis.

The connection feeling with the kinesises abilities has been changed a lot that I couldnt tell which kinesis is for me but aerokinesis.

My aerokinesis has got improved better thought it not really much.

I have had the feeling like I have connection all for 4 basic elements which are air, fire, earth and water.

If i have to say which element i feel the connection strongest, i'd say they're air and earth, then the fire and last is water.

I have many dreams showed that I can do them, and 1 of them even did showed pretty vivid that I also can do telekinesis too thought it not as strong as the other kinesises.To say the progress about those, aerokinesis now i can do kind of like the ATLA/Korra and calling air blowing; pyro I can flick the fire a bit; hydro I can shake the surface of water a bit; eletrokineis I can somehow make the eletric flash throughout my hands in energy form pretty much that I feel tingling and shocking in my hand whenever I pratice.

About the earth, there's nothing to say cuz to me it's the hardest kinesis to do.Besides, on the tiktok, i sometimes got on there to watch other kinetic people do to learn sth from them.

And I did posted some showing me doing aerokinesis as well.

Then like in around the January, 2 strange guys who kinetic people have warning all those time: Dennis and Toshio (maybe if I remember their names right).

Though still be careful with them, I'm confident to say that I don't think they can reach out to me since I live Ho Chi Minh city, the city fills with bunch of motors, cars, vans, etc...

And it's hard to track people.

I'm not gonna lie about that.

Even exact the civilians in here got struggling with the traffic, with the people coming from other countries will definitely have harder time to deal LOL.

The traffic in Vietnam, especially in the big cities, they're like crazy, you guys have to come and give an experience that you can tell how crazy it is.END
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
Painful yet exhausted experience and announcement about new book​


Today, in Vietnam, is the evening of 11th April.

And last night i got such an exhausted experience that i have ever had in my life.

Actually I did have one similar to this was around 2 years ago, during the Covid lockdown.

But this time is worse.

I guarantee 100% and i'm not gonna lie.Allow me to tell in time order.

Well before the bed, i was sitting chilling surfing online.

When coming to the point my back started tired, so wanted to drop down.

The moment i was about to drop back, i felt a pressure, felt like my wings was stuck in way.

But the feeling was different, it felt like it was the 2nd set of wings, not the normal 1 set of wings because I could tell the difference of having 1 set and having 2 sets.

So, i tried to spread out the wings to see if my thought was right or not.

And turned out that it was right, was truth.

I could feel pretty vividly spreading out 4 wings, and dropping back went more smoothly, and i even could feel that the wings' skin part was lain down on each other.

Weird.

But it became clarifying my thought, my doubt, that i can't just keep avoid it anymore, the fact that i have 4 wings instead of normal 2 wings.Then, came to the sleeping time.

At first I was laying peacefully.

Suddenly, my limbs went soring, numb and pain as well.

My heart felt heavy, pounding harshly, i couldn't breath, my left eye felt weird, my ribcage, the muscle at there also went numb.

Something in my body got changed.

Feeling like the energy.

I went moaning in pain.

Then I felt a force, strange force, it made me crawl out the balcony, standing up and i started chanting in such a weird language i dunno what it was but only can speaking unconsciously, as if an another me facing out toward to the world to deal it for me.

I was conscious enough to know what da fuk going on, but i couldn't control my body.

After 5-10 mins, it got better.

My limbs were still numb, but no longer pain, my heart felt comfortable and i finally can breath fine.

I dropped down and eventually drifted in sleep.Now, my forearms are still a bit numb, but at least they don't cause me in such uncomfortable feeling like last night.

The changing feeling is still there.

Especially my left eye and my heart place.

I wonder what is going on.

The moment i experienced that happening last night, i think I did heard sth told me: "Changing.

Be ready.

It'll come to you.

This's a sign.

Those ppl will come to you".

Such a weird but also exhausted experience.Now the announcement.

Imma making a new book, for the dreams I had.

Cuz I find that i had so many dreams that I guess i could mess up this book.

So writting in a different book will help me to track the progress of my books easier.

So stay tuned, it'll be published soon.END
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Becoming Avian/ Grow Wings Journal
My progress so far since the year 2019 pt1​


Imma put in the pictures of me to show the difference so far in my progress.

This mostly just for the motivation thingy, for myself and hope for y'all too.In the year 2019:

Then here's newest:

More than 2 years apart to reach to this stage.

What a long time.

To coming to the internal stage/muscle changings.

My my, i never be so proud this much.

Being such patient like this and still having a long way to go.
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